To die a glorious death in service to my king. (Ulysses)
Life really can be quite an odyssey can't it?
There are twists & turns, ups and downs, events, circumstances & mistakes that can really get us wondering what we're truly all about.
Maybe it's been a while since you checked your internal compass.
So what is your lifestance?
As much as I like the one from Ulysses, mine is more along the lines of,
"Helping others discern God in the midst of life."
There's no end to the publishing of books, and constant study wears you out so you're no good for anything else. The last and final word is this:
Do what he tells you.
And that's it. Eventually God will bring everything that we do out into the open and judge it according to its hidden intent, whether it's good or evil.